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Dating Dilemna

So the dating life.....how has it been going? Good I think. Sometimes I feel it's too good, which worries me. What if i get content with being single and want to date until I expire. But then I wonder, why should I even worry if I dont care to get married? Whats the point of even dating then? Is it just for the companionship, for the sex, for the comfort of having someone until you get bored of each other? Kind of depressing.

All these questions pop in my head, especially after dating this one guy in particular. Yes, yes, I like him a lot. But I dont want to take the plunge. I want to continue to see other people, as well as he should see other girls. But I cant help comparing everyone else to him. We just clicked, from day one. He's everything I want in someone right now. He makes me laugh, he's kind and sweet, and he's affectionate. So why not go for it? Why not make it exclusive? Well I dont think there really can be a future for us. I really see us getting hurt in the end. I know that's negative and some of you will continue to say I'm a pessimist, but I really believe I'm more of a realist. We just have one big difference, that may not be a concern now, but will be in the future, and I guess I just don't see it working in the long run. It makes me so sad though cuz he makes me happy. And it's been awhile.

Should I take other's advice and just relax and go with the flow? Just enjoy it and have fun? I can and do when I'm with him and talk to him. But, every night when I go to sleep and lay in my bed, that's when all my thoughts and fears arise. And I can't help but feel the inevitable doom to come.

posted by yellowgirl @ 1:22 AM