Portlands In Da House
So my friends aaron and scott from portland arrived sunday, yay!! they're such great guys and i missed them a lot.l We went to dinner at a thai restaurant in Alhambra, thanks again josh!! delicious!!! and Scott and Aaron loved it as well. Scott really loved the level 7 spicy noodles, lol!! (sorry again scott - but that was hilarious!)
Afterwards, we came home and played the newlywed game. You may ask, hmmm....... isn't that a married couple's game, let alone just a couples game? How did you guys play that? Well my best friend Joy and I were paired off as one, and aaron and scott were paired off as the other. Yes yes, they were thrilled and aaron graciously volunteered to be the wife!! ha ha Well the newlywed game turned into, which pair of best friends know each other better. Of course joy and i won, and the guys knew we would as well, but it was a close game! Afterwards, we played some good rounds of Uno, great game!! And the highlight of that was scott getting hit with a 4 stack of "draw two's" and ending up drawing 8!! he was not a happy camper, but we still made sure to point at him and laugh. thats what friends are for :D
Then scott showed us some really awesome magic tricks, one that scared joy and i to death. i think i peed a little. and i showed my aweseom 4 jailbird magic card trick. you know what?!?! it was my first magic trick ever people!! :P
Then we ended the night well with some racial jokes and stories about haplo "breaking" his manhood ;) good times good times
well they're staying with us for a few days, then it's off to new mexico. all four of us are road tripping it so i know the fun has just begun!
Im a Druggee
So some of you have known about my "bean." Its this killoid I had on my right ear, the 3rd one but we won't get into that. Well i finally got it removed last week, yay!! DING DONG THE BEAN IS DEAD.....
Besides feeling 5lbs lighter because this sucker was huge! It costed out of pocket (cuz me no have insurance) $950!! yep!! so if anybody feels sorry for me and would like to donate to the kim ju fund, i'll be gladly to give you my info :) So the surgery process was all local, i was wide awake and was just given some novocaine to numb the ear. So yes, I felt the doctor slicing away at my ear like he was getting ready to eat a grade A rib eye steak. He also used an electrolysis (<--i know i butchered the spelling) so i got to smell the burning of my flesh as i lay awake. yummy, medium well please.
Now today i went back to the doctor to get my 8 stitches removed. I had them front to back which i found odd since my killoid was on the back of my ear. Found out that he had to slice my lobe in half. Yes people, in half like slicing an apple you're about to share with a friend. ::shivers:: Anyhoo, how does it look you may be wondering. It looks alittle funky. The reason I get these killoids is because my body has a hard time healing from wounds, besides another part of me as well (sniffle sniffle). <--- haha Im being so DRAMATIC!! tee hee So naturally, there'll be a good chance of major scarring from the incisions. So my doc, shot me up with some steroids, free of charge! (dont worry it was all into my ear) But i was still very nervous! When he asked me "Do you want me to shoot you up with some steroids?" I looked at the doctor all confuddled O.o Apparently it helps the healing process go faster. So i said FREE? HELL YEAH!! SHOOT ME UP DOC!! (not really how it went) But here I am, seems the swelling did go down alot on my ear, and i havent started growing chest hairs just yet ;) (but keep your fingers crossed!)
an end at the beginning
Casual dating to a serious monogamous relationship, should one be considered a better route than the other? The more I think about, the more I see they're not similar at all, yet, not so different. I know I'm contradicting myself right now. But it all makes sense.
At this moment, I'm in a rut. I've been playing for the "casual dating" team. Now I've run into someone who thinks and doesn't quite understand why I play for them. He asks if I have ever thought about running into problems with the path I'm taking. Of course I have. And I'm accepting full consequences in this decision I have made, being fully aware of all the possibilities. But it is MY decision. He questioned me, "what if you start liking a guy that you're dating and want to get serious with. But then you find out he wants to get serious with a different girl and not you." See, I've already thought of that happening, and that is the chance I have to take. But what difference is that from dating one guy, in a serious monogamous relationship, and then having him tell me that "i want to see other people" or "i met someone else." The only difference I see is you devote more in the committed relationship as supposed to the casual dating. That means you're risking more in every department, let alone the cut would be deeper. I'm still healing from a previous burn. And that is why right now, I'm not ready. Casual dating basically keeps me somewhat protected. It helps me to stay in line and not fall in too deep, or too quickly. It's basically like having your orange floaties and just dawdling in the pool, testing out the water, before you take them off and decide to dive in deep. Unfortunately with all that is happening, some things happen at the wrong place and at the wrong time.
Dont Fret
So i've been thinking that i want to go camping by myself. When i told this to others, they all say it's a bad idea. And im sure they won't be the last ones either. But! What should i be afraid of? That someone will sneak into my tent and attack me? Well someone can do that in front of my house too. Does that mean i should stay at home, doors locked at all times? No. Of course not, that'd be ridiculous. We can't live our life afraid all the time. Life is about making decisions and taking chances, and then living out the effects of everything we do, both good and bad. We can and should always take precaution in everything. That is why i plan on NOT camping at some remote, desolate location. I'll be making sure there is cell phone coverage as well.
Anyhoo, what brought on this solo outing. I'm not quite sure to be honest. It sounds cheesy but i really feel like i need to be alone. Not because i think i'll get some sort of inspiration, or some new motivation in life. I just thought it'd be nice to be somewhere, peace and quiet. Just have a couple of nights where i dont have to think about anything, or anyone. I want to get to that point where my own voice sounds foreign to me. But we'll see. Again, this is just a thought so far so loosen up them panties! :P
which is it
Its funny how people can let you down. How they can say one word, and it erases all your previous thoughts on him/her. It makes you want to shut down and close all your doors to the rest of the world. Makes me wonder what's more important, trust, or forgiveness.
