The end?
So ive finally come to the conclusion and/or decision. I just hope this one sticks = / Sorry im going to be very vague but im doing that purposely. But ive finally realized that it was up to me. Again i was in a situation that was way too familiar. And my answers surfaced the same. I reminded myself that the real question here was if im able to except it for the way it is, if i want to except it for the way it is. Otherwise, leave. Go. I am never one to try to change it. It has always been either take it or leave it. Last time i chose to leave it, it was the right choice. Tonight i chose to leave as well, and i pray that its the right one...
im tired.
is it over yet?
So many of you already know, Joy is gone, my Joy. She got a great opportunity from her previous employer to do another contract on the cruise line where this time, she gets to travel to Africa. If some of you don't know Joy, thats one country that she's always wanted to go, but never got a chance to. So this is it and Im very excited for her. I know it's only temporary, she'll be back before I even know it, but I do miss her dearly. This is the first time in a long time where I wish for time to fly by quickly.
Other than that, not much is different with my life, that includes my lovelife unfortunately. You may wonder what happened with "that guy." Nothing. I havent seen him in about a month due to both of our schedules just not being compatible. But I am definitely tired of the dating scene. Now i really do want to have a "boyfriend." I want to be in a serious (& monogomous) relationship. I want to be head over heels in love and have that
same guy be in love with me too. (see how I had to add that lol) I want to be able to talk to him everyday, even if it's about unimportant/uneventful things. I want to be at that comfort level with someone that I can finally be relaxed.
Srsly though, 2006 is coming to a quite shite end. I am emotionally & mentally drained! I'm just hoping 07' is better.
